As a middle school math teacher, I spent a lot of time helping others find solutions to problems. I have always enjoyed challenging math problems because I know, for the most part, there are solutions waiting to be found. Never having been a fan of questions or problems in which the “answers may vary,” I find great satisfaction in finding the one answer that solves the problem; the answer that proves my hard work was not in vain.
In life we face many problems, most of which have answers or solutions. But, what do we do when we find ourselves in the midst of circumstances that seem to have no end or solution? What do we do when there are no answers to our questions? What if we cry out day after day and night after night and nothing changes?
For the past few years, I have asked a lot of questions; I have received very few answers. I have wrestled with circumstances that have forever changed my life and the lives of those I love – circumstances that have broken our hearts. I have searched in vain for answers that make sense of a situation that seems so senseless. In the midst of my trials, God has seemed silent; no answers have been sent.
Yet, in the silence, there is immeasurable peace; peace that can only come from the Father. Although questions remain unanswered and circumstances remain unchanged, He calms my soul. His silence is powerful and I feel His presence now more than ever.
I cry out to Him and ask, “Why? Why this, Lord?” I beg for clarity and plead for understanding. He is silent; yet, my faith grows. I explain that my situation is so unfair; peace flows and calms my mind. In the midst of the silence, I am compelled to trust Him and His Word. I find rest in His wisdom and faithfulness. When I simply cry, “Help me, Lord!” He is there and I rejoice.
Habakkuk 3:17-18
17 Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, 18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior.
