Within moments, my life changed forever. The single ring of my doorbell brought news that shook my faith to its core and caused me to question everything I ever thought to be true.
I was shocked and stunned for days. I cried out to God and shouted. “Really, God! Is this really the answer to my days, months and years of praying for my child? Is this it? Were you not listening? Where were you all those sleepless nights when I cried out for help and prayed until the early morning hours? Where were you when others prayed on our behalf? Where were you, God?
And He answered, “I am and have always been with you.”
He is with me when I cry over shattered dreams and missed opportunities. He is there as I process my grief, anger, and regrets. He is with me when my heart aches because of the unfairness of it all. He never leaves me even when I turn my mind and heart away from Him and try to make sense of a situation that is so senseless. He is always there and His word promises:
Psalms 9:9-10 “The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble. And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.”
Isaiah 41:10 “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”
Psalms 23:4 “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.”
Isaiah 41:13 “For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.”
Because God gives me peace, hope and strength, my faith, which was once shaken to its core, is now stronger than ever. He has proven over and over that He will never leave me and never forsake me. When I cry, “My heart is broken. Help me, Lord”, He is always there and quickly sends the comfort I need.
Most of my questions are unanswered and there is much I do not understand. However, when I question God, I am reminded of his words in Isaiah 55:8, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. For now, I must trust Him.
He is there for you, also. He is there for all who seek Him. No problem or situation is too great. Turn your eyes upon Jesus and cry out to Him.
